Let my thoughts wander off the edge of this world where infinity begins
and endless notions of nihility take place,
where the silent conversations keep going and time becomes irrelevant,
where life loses its meaning and fills itself with void.
I see cosmic bodies mingling and intertwining in their disgusting superfluous shapes judging me as if I was an ounce of worthless something.
How long does a second last here?
Oh, I forgot the time was irrelevant here.
Then where does the blackness end here?
Oh, what does it matter?
My worldly love is of no value here.
My thoughts that scream out their existence are never heard here.
I look to the moon and I look to the stars.
In my panic I look everywhere trying to find the heavenly bodies.
But you see I'm kidding myself. I know better because I know I will not see anything other than the darkness here.
So all of a sudden I'm teary but I pretend that my eyes caught the dust of something extraterrestrial passing by and that I can withstand this.
Isn't it silly to feel that you're sinking while all you could ever do in this frivolous vacuum was to float?
11th January 2014
